So, I don't wanna tell every detail in case he somehow found this on the internet...
I've known this guy for about 2 years. We've always been friends even though we never hung out or anything. But back in the day (grade 10) we used to be somewhat fond of each other, and always just had an unspoken friendship throughout the years, with an occasional "Hey, how have you been?"
Anyway. I was bored so I asked him if he felt like getting drunk. We went to his house and started gaming a re-reading the old letters I used to give him. We were being too loud so we had to go to my house. We started gaming and one thing led to another and yeah. (I've only had sex once before this.) It's kinda embarrassing. He was perfect but I felt like a sloppy hoe the whole time. I felt like a nasty prostitute during it, and right when he finished he got up and left.
I texted him in the morning and insisted everything is okay. But now I don't know whether I should text him up and ask him if he wants to get stoned like how we always used to say we should do together. Or if I should just leave him be and see what happens.
But I don't want things to be awkward. I don't want to pass him in the hall, keeping my eyes on the floor. I want to know we're still going to be okay.
So my thinking was that me and him could just hang out briefly one last time before school and just make it like everything's going to be okay. But then again I don't want him to be like alright leave me alone!
I don't know what to do. I know what I want to do (hang out with him one last time to lessen the potential awkwardness). But maybe I should just give him some space.